Family.

welp haven't really been on here in awhile. I just haven't really had the time or the patients. There's just a lot of shit going on in my life that's just making me stop and think. First of, I must say that I will never take my boyfriend, my baby's father, the Love of my Life, for granite ever again. He has done everything and anything for me. I mean, yeah, maybe he doesn't show his feeling the same way everyother person does in the world, but he doesn't have to. I know he loves me. I just feel like there has been a lot of times where I took him for granite, and these past couple weeks have been real hard. And it has just shown me what my life would be like without him. It just wouldn't be the same. I don't even know what I would do. He completes me. He is my Rock that keeps from drifting off. And right now, at this point in my life, I just want to be surrounded by my family. I just don't want poeple to think I'm shuting people out. It almost came to a point where I didn't have my family anymore and it scared me to death. So for me to even get back to where I was before, I just need to be witht the ones I almost lost. Until I feel comfortable again. It's going to be a slow process but hopefully at the end, I still have my family.

WOW.

Haven't updated in awhile. I've been slackinn. Nothings really been going on. I mean Springs here but the good weather still hasn't come yet. Patiently waiting I guess.... Xavier's been good. Standing and jumping and everything. He can basically sit up on his own too. Ummm....Me. Ehh. Been battling with my weight for the past 3-4 months. Summer's right around the corner and I'm praying I look right in a bathing suit. I don't want to be the one everyone looks at and says she shouldn't have that on. Even though this summer is really going to be all about Xavier. His first summer. I mean of course he won't remember it but I always will. He'll probably eat sand everytime we go to the beach Lol. But I enjoy it. My relationship now-a-dayss...has been good. We've been getting along. ((Hopefully I don't jinx itt!!!) I lovee him. I don't care what anyone thinks, Heinsky is sexy to me. He does what he has to do to take care of his family and to me that is the sexiest thing any man can do. But anywaysss, I'm basically done. Going to Water townn tomorroe. Hopefully i find something nicee.

Fun Nitee.

Here are the pics from the *Double Date* Lol.

Me and Fatima boredd so we had our own photo shoot Lmao.

Club nitee.

Siggghhh....

Ehe. I've madd lazy latly. Haven't really been keeping up with my bloggingg. Of course, nothing really funn and excitingg latly besides the club....? I'm not sure if I posted anything about that? Remeber, I smoke, so I randomly forget small things. But ANYWHOO. It's been pretty blahh latly. I've just been home with Xavier, counting the days till the good weather is finally here. I'm supposed to be going next Tuesday to get a tatto done. I'm pretty excited even though I'm not even sure yet what I am going to do. For the past couple of days, I've actually been thinking about geting something done for the BD Lol. Not sure yet. i was going to suprise him with it if anything but I ended up telling him tonite. Lol. I wanted to knoe his oinion on what I should get. He's telling me to get his full name on me. But I was like HELL no. The most i would probably do is his initals. But I've really been wanting to get Xavier's name done. But I want to get his big. I want it to be real big on my arm. SO that's going to coast a pretty penny. And I don't have too much money to be wasting right now. So I'm not sure. But of course when I figure it out and I get it done, I'll post some picsss. But that's all for tonite. I'm about to call the Boo to see when his ass is getting in. Nite!!

Double Datee.

OK. So yesterday, Me, Tima and my boyfriend and his friend went on our Double date/Blind date Lol. It was pretty funn. I mean Tima and Doken's barely talked Lol. But we had funn. We went bowling at some place with a hole bunch of old people Lol. Since it was a Saturday night, everywhere else would have been packed. We only played one game. Kiki won Lol, I came in second, and Tima and Doken's tied Lol. But then we went back to Kiki's and of course, smoked a couple blunt and had some Coronas. Me and Fatima had this bigg Photo shoot in Kiki's room Lol. I would have put them up BUT Fatime forgot yesterday! Lol. But I'll have them up sonner then laterr.

Ok Ok just a few more pics of Chunkyy.