I met my baby's father the summer '05, when I was just introduced to one of the other Loves of ym life, Trees. Lol so one day I was walking down the street with my friend Sasha and we see piece of shit truck like 8 times in Union Square. So we're both sitting there like "What the hell, why would any one be trying to show off in that" Lol. So then she notice that she knew the person in the car. It was Kiki, I had no idea who he was at the time. So we all talk and everything and make plans to chyll like the next day. We all meet up, Me, Sasha, Kiki, and one of his friends. After that, every day that summer we were together everynite just smoking and telling jokes and everything. After about a week, I just came out and asked my friend, "Is there any reason why I shouldn't like this kid?" Lol cause I just always had bad luck with men. I'm telling you, he was sooo shy at first. I basically found out everything about him from his friend.
After a couple of months, I just feel completly in Lovee with him. && I always asked myself why? Because at the begining, he would do everything and anythingg for me. We went to to the movies like 3x in a row in one week just because there was 3 movies out that I wanted to see. Lol. He used to drive all the way from the other side of the city to drive me up the the street to work, he used to bring me food at 3 in the morning, just little things like that were so sweet. Now, yeaa right. All of that went away after a little while. I just miss the way I could tell that he loved me. I fell out of Love with him at one point and I never thought I'd get the feelings back for him that I had before. But once he gave me my son, I just got this inconditional Love for him. It just feels like that's slowly slipping away. I always said comunication is key and I try talking to him, but it just goes in one ear and out the other. I just hope we can work threw all this. Having a baby is hard and it does often put a strain on relationships. But, not us, I can't and I won't let us fall apart.
After a couple of months, I just feel completly in Lovee with him. && I always asked myself why? Because at the begining, he would do everything and anythingg for me. We went to to the movies like 3x in a row in one week just because there was 3 movies out that I wanted to see. Lol. He used to drive all the way from the other side of the city to drive me up the the street to work, he used to bring me food at 3 in the morning, just little things like that were so sweet. Now, yeaa right. All of that went away after a little while. I just miss the way I could tell that he loved me. I fell out of Love with him at one point and I never thought I'd get the feelings back for him that I had before. But once he gave me my son, I just got this inconditional Love for him. It just feels like that's slowly slipping away. I always said comunication is key and I try talking to him, but it just goes in one ear and out the other. I just hope we can work threw all this. Having a baby is hard and it does often put a strain on relationships. But, not us, I can't and I won't let us fall apart.
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